31 th jan 08 thurs

wake up early and off to school , i must reach my school at 10 am :(
test whole day ! waxing & body massage practical test
i failed everything , i quite disappointed for the body massage exam cause i already did every steps accordingly without forget any steps and for my oral , i could answer all the question correctly but then still failed me . Maybe she was surprise that i could do everything nicely even though my attendace was so poor and she dun even give me a pass. But i felt that she against me , for someone she even forget some steps and doing shortcut and she passed her. WTH , don't you think is so unfair :(

i will never give up , no worry:) i will do better next time round!

off early and meet dar , waited him at tamah merah and we chatted till he reached there and we head back to boon lay . he feel so lame that he came all the way here and now heading back again . has , i dun wan be alone in the train :) but he so good to wake up early and sit an hours trip to pick me up . THANKs! So many things to catch up , we have 2 days never met and we are missing each other like hell. i just cant waited to pinch and tease him:)
went back home and bathe after buying some sauages and burger . head to jp and settle our dinner at ichiban , cant really eat much so we shared the meal of UNAGI egg . One thing , i never failed having pink lady cooler . shopping again after having dinner :) CHARLES & KEITH again , i have walked in for so many times ,brought a white heels to match my dress and i still deciding should buy that black heels ; but s really hard for me to match my clothing . standing down there and keep thinking . sigh ! i going to buy a white mini skirt and see whether it could match :)

i love this white heel



Home sweet home !
darling had prepared my clean pjymas for me cause i keep complaining :) has
together we watched tv ~ so long we have not doing things together. i missed those times we are so close and sweet . kissing and teasing when watching tv:)
he took out something from nowwhere and it was a sweater from his shop that i loved.
he brought it for me , he always so sweet can !
love you:)

dar brought for me. thank:)


i do upload lot of pics for hairdo with my sis :) pls scroll down

head to school for that test and it take me 15 mins to finish:)
and after test , there no lesson :(
i feel so lame , 2hr trip for coming to school and take a 15 mins paper and head home.

head to far east , i decided to buy that treatment creme .
but today is another lady and she dun give me any discount unless i brought $50 above so i brought a shampoo , conditioner and treatment creme for $52.50 and so she give me 20% and sign a VIP card.

i super hate dry and frizzy hair now.

off to heeren to eat wanton mee , reali superb.
so spicy and tasty .
i love the fried wanton,
in real i dun reali love eating waton but theirs are damn nice .

29th 08 tues

coughing non stop , i be taking medicine but it doesnt work on me ~ something wrong with my body or is it more than a cough? i be coughing like a virus person , everyone on bus or train give me that look and stand a distance a way from me . i felt so irritated! it have been days i never attend to school , i must jia you :)

head to orchard with niam and ting for hair session :)
went to orchard plaza ( hair option ) , i have booked the appointment at 3 but we reach earlier .
niam do treat ment while ting & me dye and treatment.
i tried new colour , dark brown !
we do more than 3 hours :( due to bad services , i dun like luh.
so bad till i cant stand it man .
yet ting and me get cheated to brought that loreal serum for dry hair.
did a $100 plus hair for a bad service , i rather go other salon.
i wil not visited this salon anymore :( i swear.


i have a black black hair , seem like a kuku person . look more like a good gal. pic wil posted soon !

before hair do . messy!


steamer

this is the stupid lady i mention . she pulling my hair!

she dyed outside of the hair.. evidence!

after hair do:)

say bye to gold hair

this serum she cheated us to buy

head to far east and went to SAKURA and settle our dinner . the dishes is nice and the price is reasonable . niam and me is a BIG eater , we still ate a plate of mee goreng after having rice. has has:) after eating , we head for fast shopping ; ting is rushing home. And i still deciding should i buy that treatment creme :( went back home without any paper bag, surprise ! shop at jp charles and keith , try on a black heels . look super gorgeous but i still wonder what to wear to match this heels. sigh. never buy:( off to ting house and tease the baby , niam turn mad ! she even forget to take her laptop home , lucky ting mom said something and remind her. she forever so blur. has

wait for dar too off work and we have a puff before home:)

dinner at sakura


the reason why i smiled:)

yummy :)


NOKIA or SAMSUNG

our kuku pose :) trademark

funny .. HAHAHAHA


PROPER one

she always be my stupid blur queen. has


fiona be , lee mommy and stephy tobe

28th jan 08

HAPPY 13th anniversary.

it should always be a happy day for us on 28th eery month.
having dinner , movie (THE HOUSE ) , sleep and cruddle together.


His friend called on midnight told him to go out for fishing , he know that's not my type and he told me that he cant bear to apart from me to go without me:) He coax me after making love and i fallen asleep . Not long awhile , i have a bad nightmare . i jump up from the bed and called out his name , i need someone to hug and i turned around trying to hug him . I was hugging the air not him :( i called him and he told me that he was at outside with his friends. Maybe he cant imagined that i can wake up so early after a sound sleep ; nighmare reali scare me:( He knew that i afraid to be alone in a dark room , he told me that he will never leave me alone and yet i was lying on the bed in the dark room by myself. I was so afraid and frightened that i did not even dare to wink my eyes . i be hoping for his fast return ! i waited for 1 hr plus and i so tired but i still did not dare to sleep. i felt so disappointed and upset , my tears falling again. i need someone to console me on that moment , everyone have been sleeping . I know my tears cant hold back anymore , i feel so useless ! i felt so hatred , why he did this thing to me ? i always have faith on you and i knew that you will think of me before you did somethig but is a WRONG , you NEVER ! I can ever give up my clubbing session and night life style just to accompany you an sleep but what you did ? just went out like this and enjoyed youself .

upon hearing my voice on the phone , cant you hear that i'm crying.
things happen again ad again . my heart have been break into so many pieces
love and trust have become so doubtful.
please dont act nothing really happen , hug me to sleep !
After things happen , you told me that you really love me,
if you do so , you wouldnt hurt me again eac times.
i feel so stupid to salavage this relationship.
do you know how much i hate you for putting me alone in a dark room ?
do you know i have so much fear and tears on that night?
do you know anything ?

once again you make me disappointed

Everyone bear with my recent post .
currently i'm on emotional state :(
i cant hardly everytime post things that make me happy and joy .
i do have feelings , i do upset or cried.

My very first time i upload a chinese song on my blog.
This song really meaningful.
whenever i played this song ,
my tears rolled down.
This song is so true between us !

When things have being told , you become speechless .
I felt something, i felt that we no longer that close.
Too much things to ponder between us ,
things happen again and again .

Am i thinking too much??

想太多
演唱：李玖哲
是莪想恴太多,還是伱爱恴不够?

給莪明天是承诺還是?

你笑着说 他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔

我的不安 那么沉重
只有你不懂

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们 不是你和我

是我想太多 你总这样说
但你却沒有 真的心疼我
是我想太多 我也这样说
这是唯一能 安慰我的理由

他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落 所以你说
我们 不是你和我

是我想太多 你总这样说
但你却沒有 真的心疼我
是我想太多 我也这样说
这是唯一能 安慰我的理由

我想我沒有 错怪了什么
虽然你不说 都是错在我
太晚我才懂 爱了你太多

--End--

是我想太多 你总这样说
但你却沒有 真的心疼我
是我想太多 我也这样说
这是唯一能 安慰我的理由


i start to love this song . that's really very meaningful .
thinking too much between us ...
and you never ever realise how much i could feel:(
afraid that one day , she could replaced me in your heart.
Am i thinking too much!

if you ever pass by to read my post ,

maybe the words you sent to her seems to be a joke , i dun think so . it really break my heart into pieces , i keep pondering throughout the night . NO doubts your love on me before. Now , how could you tell me to trust you after seeing those msg ? i always thought that you are someone special , different those bastard out there. Baby , is not the first time those message i found out on your phone , previously you told me that is all misunderstanding , i accept cause i love you .Now how could you say you love me while you told her to be your gal or even teasing her.i'm pretending to stand strong and talk to you , but can you see how i feel deep down in my heart.Baby , could you tell me that this is only a nightmare.
i'm know is lame but is so true.

25th of jan fri

went home after buying fox baby clothings for baby janelle birthday present and bi get himself a shirt for tonight celebration.. finally he brought something for himself since we be together like 1 yr pls.. he's a thifty person but i'm not. happy that spend $80 above get a free orange bag for cny. so sweet !!

his new fox shirt


mummy make fruits jelly .. baby lust for so long since dunno when . has
he can eat now!!! i love grape rather then honeydew:)

fruits jelly :)


pack my cosmestic and clothing on a bag and off to baby hse :)
meanwhile also pass the present for him ~
head to jurong point and brought a polar cake for tonight ,
share with ah niam:)
reach him hse and i coughing non stop till 1 hr..
i tears again , whenever i cough i feel like puking out .. so suck !
baby feed me medicine and resting on his bed while he cooking corns for me.

night , off to wash up again and make up .
baby alway take his own sweet time, i finished everything but he still started to style his hair.
he always last min:(
off to meet ah yong and ah niam and big head and went to meet kelly and her boy.
kelly always so blur, tell her meet clark quay and she off to boat quay :) she hor.... everytime e. has

clark quay

kelly help to book a table at blue dolphin at boat quay so we walked there since clark quay pubs is packed. oh , reach there and i realised that my friends work here perviously and quite lot of my friends came here before . heard is fun!
order 2 chivas and the system is very good i can say. but too bad , i cant sing :(
ya, and me and kelly keep comparing who have the ugly past last time we work at pub, very fun of reminising those past time. there's alot of waitress on that pub, and all quite pretty :) haha kelly also say so~But only certain luh not all!
we have lot of games played together and 11 plus sing birthday song and cut cake . phototaking session again.

chocolate trussio

baby twist:)

his precious:)

happy birthday bibi

darling so happy with 3 beauties. has

cousin & fren

nokia phone reali sux

so sweet~

3 old man. i take this photoshoot. clear:)

ah yong reali is a poor camera man...

someone i love the most:)

pray hard !

ur face is steph creation. cremey face

love you SIS.

Kelly tell us to pose this. has

SIS fav pose

proper one:)

after 1am , there's bar top dancer and they played r&b throughout to close. sis and me gonna turn mad again , i cant resist dance when i'm tipsy . And we danced like nobody cares. has. make me feel like going club , CLUB ! And i'm too forcus on the bar top dancers dance , their steps , their looks , their figures. Reminise the past , use to be a dancer at curious:)
BTW , the dancers are too fat .. haha
Baby keep missing from the table, behind smoking with them. Kennth is drunk :) has
jealous with baby, cause i saw him talking to a malay gal without my knowing .
i do know one things , the waitress there quite vain:)

big head drunk~

baby angry me , i know!
cause he dun like me to dance ,
my dance is dirty. has


How i wish that i can stand on the bar top again but i know it wont be happen again.

sweet couple

opps , what she doing??

CENSOR

LOVE U sis.

head home around 3.30 am , baby is tipsy. sigh i gonna suffered from his nag again.
i dun like luh ~ reach home and bathe , saw him lying on the sofa sleeping . angry:(
i wont care much , tuck in alone . but i feared of sleeping alone in the dark, i feel like crying on that moment. i wondering when you're tipsy , did you care how i feel? Cant close my eyes, look through his phone and found something tt make me break down , hold back my tears and think.
i putting a high hope between us, did not even think that you wil do those things to me.
because i coulnt imagine that someone treat me so well , someone who always love me more then himself , someone care me more than my families did , someone be there for me through up and down would ever betrayed me. i keep lying to myself that it was a joke ! let it be , i dun wish to know that it was a fact.