22 march 07 thurs

went out abt 10 and go find baby . saw serene and her bf at bus interchange , have a chat; thought he wil be late for closing . but what a surprised , he called me and said he off work le !!!!

went home after saying good bye to serene ...


baby slept so early yesterday :0
tomorrow his off day again :)

19 march tues
we went to his fren birthday chalet after his work .
felt quite uneasy cause alot of those weird aunty who talked so loud.
went home quite early , and i get hungry after watching tv , we delivery 20 nuggets. :0


baby we have wonderful chat over this night
treasure you always !!
love him ;+







20 march wed

today he half day work , came my house and waited for me to prepare .
i took my own sweet time again :)

went to bencoolen and take his stuff and went to shop .
i try one yellow top at mlphosis , it looked fat ...
but i love the cutting ! and not really exp :) maybe i choose this top rather than foever 21.
;*)

went home quite early and about midnight we hungry and we called delivery mcd and went to sleep after eating ZZzz


baby , we have our beautiful planning
one day it wil happen! :)
you should know what i mean .

fri 16 of march

went swimming with my beloved sister , we always have common topic to talk and laughed.
and this topic wil always being so popular among us ; we found that if the atmosphere getting boring , we wil think of it and started to discuss and laughed... after swimming went to eat and went to imm and disturbed my baby boy.

he was angry seeing so tanned ; no swimming for me anymore ! :(


we lying on the bed and he tear off the proposal i given to him
1) $19.90 black bag
2)$19.90 black shoes
3)$90 dye hair
4)$20 face shop base
5)$29.90 double extension

additional items
1)guess wallet
2)little match girl sling bag
3)gucci envy / dior perfume
4) blush powder
5) forever 21 tees

he agree and wanna buy for me ; jump to joy!!



17th march sat
we have some quarrel ; i just get pissed off by him . some more i come mens , my stomach cramp ! cant he spare a thought for me.
he called me so many times but i ignored all his called. tears again and went to sleep !
i hurt him by hurting myself , i felt so heart ache..

baby , sorry for what i done to hurt you !
is pain to see you hurt .
i trying to hide my love bottom of my heart ,
and never to show it and let you know how much you worth for my love!

baby you trying so hard to open my heart ,
and see how much you meant to me .
can you feel it now?
sometimes i trying not to love you but i failed ,
cause you have completely filled up my life.

pass my medical report; daddy send baby and me go school pay school fees .
he swaped his credit but not paying cash ... save cash to eat and buy things ( good planner).
headed to baby grandmom hse and visited his grandmom.. daddy even give us 2 hi card to redeem 2 set of mcd , i cant resisted food ... haha i wanna eat!!!!

went to vivo , and went to baleno and he go do his thing ; photoshot every display .
after done ,went to redeem the mac and each of us stil ate one cheese burger. yummy!
we had a quick shop and went to forever 21 and show baby the top i want cause he wanna brought for me ... lucky he said is nice too!! he gonna buy for me after his pay . baby brought a
rip curl slipper for $49 .. and we shop at guess shop , i saw a wallet i wanted; quite cheap , hope he gonna buy for me ..



sat at outside vivo and rest , the scenery was nice . especially cable car ; the lighting is so colourful and attractive , somemore is windy there ... romantic !!!



every night hugging each other on bed and sleep;
is a sweet and nice thing we do almost every day.
love you with al my heart ...
everynight a good night kiss , every morning a morning kiss.
a one and only sweet couple.

check up & day out with gal fren

12th march

baby went check up with me at SATA , so freaking weird there. the nurse there is rude and doctor there is unprofessional .. the doctor injected me without putting any medicine .. most funniest things was when need to test my unrine , i cant piss maybe i too nervous . so have to drink lot of water in order for me to piss... i was afraid cause my urine was so plain and i saw other was so yellowish , i thought i have diseases!! haha... when consulation , that doctor told me that tattoo can contacted to disease , den want to fail me.. what wrong having tattoo or piercing !! i dont need any comments from other other , i love my skin and body !!


meet serene and kuan to shop . we went to msq and then head to vivo . i brought a 600g of sea shells chocolate for baby . some pic of us , wil be posting few days later.





tattoo is art , please stop giving me that kind of looks and comments.
tattoo doesnt represent " ah lian" , it just a simple art .
can you ever tolerate the pain when tattoo?
if cannot , you shut up !
you just simply jealous of my skin .



sister sorry for the past i so wild and jealousy
that lead us quarrel...
lucky we solved this problem and we are back again .
not worth it to fight over a failure .
i love you .

day out with ting!

9th of march

went swimming with ting and baby , this the first time we have outdoor activites , we carried such a big bag like going to overseas. we laughed our ownself! she swim for awhile and went off to find her boy. me and baby enjoyed our process , we have laughter , jokes and gossips . he kept laughing of my foolishness , cause i keep shouting non-stop like a kids... M i ? we went to eat kfc after swimming, both of us are so hungry and i dun wanna share my cheesefries with him ... he going crazy.. haha!!! i kept complaining that i becoming tanned , i hated it ..... my back are so hot and black , looked like a indian skin . i need a whitening creme, who going buy for me?


went to je and see what show we going to watch , actually we long so much to watched " ghost rider" , but there did not have that movie .. so we watched " hanibbal rising" . we dun even know this show is nice or whatever , all we know is horrible show. we brought herbal egg , pop corn and drinks inside theathre !


firstly we thought this show is all about war like those boring movie , but this is actually a nice show to watch.. but is totally disgusting ... those armies ate hanibbal sister to survived , therefore he wanted to revenge and wanted those armies to feel the pain her sister felt... is a bloody show!!! baby keep telling me close my eyes , cause i afraid , is too scary and it make your hairs stand. " you eat my sister , i want to collect your head".



hope there wil be more excited outing ahead for us.
love make me learn to be more responsibilty , sensitive to his feeling.
make me realised how beautiful the world is !
thank you .

"sistership"~ "sistershit"

gal , maybe i am a fool to you , you dun even care how i feel at all.
i treated you preciously , care you and love you .
but this is how you showed your love to me .
you treated me as a rubbish ; throw me in a dark corner and left me alone.
this few years of laughter , unhappiness between us;
may vanishes in your memories but not mine.
now we have come to the ending of our path
you may forget me and led your own life and have your own new friends.
i hereby wish you al the best for your future


she choose to celebrate with her loves one "sister";
but not me and kuan .
sorry i not the one included in her heart.
the present have put one corner ;
and make me knew how important we are in her heart .
thank gal , we understand everything!

out with janelle !!

went out with pretty and we kept laughing non stop , alot of funny stuff and met alot of problematic peoples , kinda weird !! actually i have nothing on my mind to brought any stuff back home , however i get influence by pretty shopping habits ..omg ..my atm going dry!!!
brought a shorts , bikini , 2bras, one packet sea weed and one black heels......

have a bad diahhera after eating e chicken rice ! hubby saw what i brought and lucky he did not nag at me , he just said the shorts is too short !!! woo ...



love shopping with my crazy lil pretty ~ keep in contact~
love the way we laughed and giggling

28th anniversary

our 2nd month anniversary

visit his father and grand mother at tampinese .. his father and granny is so funny , they are so friendly and the way they talk and react , keep making me laugh!!

we go catch a movie show called " NORBIT" at msq .. so funny show even thought the story line is messy but then after al is a good show you can watched.. WARNING: do not eat nuts and cracker while watching this show , u wil spilt out when laughing!!
brought a small pig fan and a pig mirror , look cute but like children....

we intend to go MAKANSUTRA and eat seafood but due to the black cat at there, i was so afraid , he like gonna eat me up .... we walked to lao pa sau , so romantic cause is raining and walked with an umbrella and 15mins time reach there .. we eat satay , cockles , bbq stinggray , bbq sotong.... i was so full.. went home after eating!


simple but yet a nice memories

17th feb -- 24 th feb

I'm sick , sick .. i thought is just an unserious flur but never ever know that it become so serious that my fever hit to 40 degree , surprisly i dunno how i can survived. bad swollen sore throat making me so fear of swollow single food into my mouth , even drinking just plain water , it feels hurt HURT .. who can felt how i feel at that moment? Never be eaten for so many days, every single day just one slice of white bread ! guess m i going to slim down ? yup , my tummy have become flat after i recovery . But so sweet of him keep taking care of me without fail, especially his mother cook porridge for me and tel me take my medicine on time... i visted 2 doctors cause my fever keep come and go , he so worried !!

baby thank for ur care

can you be trusted?

i found out that his hp got a message called fannie which send him " love ya alot" !! i really dunno what does this sentence mean ? i was veri sad and he kept confronted and asked me what happen but i keep telling him that nothing happened. because i dun wish to know the fact, i scare i wil cry , i scare i wil hurt by him .. when we sleeping , he told me he love me , but i have no respond at that moment as i kept thinking that did he msg her and told her the same way as he did to me now! i sense that he crying over my coldness and ignorance but what can i do , i too hurt to think and understand .. simply i just closed my eyes and say good night to him and sleep .. that the only solution for existing of pain , don't you think so ?

thursday18/1/07
wake up at 11 plus in the morning, and he still sleeping . so i wrote our daily life style in a diary , and i think is very meaningful and when he wake up , he read it.. and asked me what happened yesterday . i dun dare to speak up in front of him but just beat about the bush and i started to cry . he told me that a misunderstanding, he said that the gal is her junior staff and she fall out of love and he console her and she treat him as a " big bro" .. she send "love ya lot" is just simply a friend care. i am jealous , i am angry but what to do , since he convince me , i just have to put a smile and told him i understand!!!

we went to eat at 289 and i went back home about 4 pm and i have to be quick cause i meeting him 6pm at boon lay .. i scared i late again ..

Sigh i late again , he reached that at 6pm but i still make up , so he got baleno and waited for me . i reached there about 6.30 pm ..haha den we go jp and walk walk and take cab heading to imm cause i reserved a boots from serene , so i have to go and see whether is nice. after talking to serene , den me and dear go diaso cause i wan buy things , buy eye brows shaver , mean while serene came to meet us cause she off work le. stupid dear keep asking me to take umbrella for him , make me look like typical auntie .. den we walk here and there. finally i saw my shop , face shop , i m so happy cause i alot of things to buy .. i brought one eyes brow pencil and one eyes shadow cost me $21 le.. and the sale gal veri funny and cute tel me buy nail polish cause today going increase the price so i faster choose .. i brought 4 bottle and she discount for me and she give me alot of sample creame tel me take take ..haha .. indeed she a nice lady ...so fun to talk to her !! went to giant and brought tissues box and cotton pad to dear house cause i need it ma, i felt something , i felt that i become a aunty .. haha ... go smoke with serene and dear go buy guay for mummie eat ! after he came to find us , serene going to find her coffee club and dear and me take cab back home.. reached home , i give some sample creme for mummie used and we watch television together waiting for the show to end and we go to eat.. lazy to wear nice so wear a pjymas and go eat with him .. after eating , wenr back home and he went to bathe ,but me sleep like a pig , dunno why i so tired!! we felt that everytime came back from imm , i wil be veri sleepy, maybe there got virus better e careful next time..

maybe i too tired le and too happy at imm cause keep laughing and all that so keep dreaming.. dear say i snored so loud lo .. and keep saying dream words such as serene cooked food for coffee club but not for me .. den later shout and say got crocodile around me..haah.. morning dear told me , we both laughed ... i like a kids to him .. bla la la.. reached home .. sleep again , now going to bathe and make up ... to be continued!

believing!!!

He is the only one who make me believe that true love existed in this world. we almost spend the time together and sure there wil be happiness and sadness like quarrel and i often lose my temper but he still willigly to tolerate and coax me . he make me realise what is love !! sudden i fear of losing him , fear that one day he leaving me . every words he told me on that night really melt my heart and i feel so touch. when i sick , he took care of me over the night and make me eat my medicine on time . he rush down to the clinic to see me even he have important task to do and he concern me when i feel pain . sometime somehow i feel like cry , i cry because i feel so happy that i met him in my life. never regret to make him mine. everytime he scold me cause he care for me ! now trying to quit smoking and quit my job .. his birthday is coming , dunno what to buy for him! sigh .. cause he love to eat and i love to eat too, now we are like pig , always eat and sleep! love him since 28 of dec , we have been together for 20 days!!!

new start of day!!

never even notice when we started to have affection in each other ! never even noticed when we started to love and care each other so much .. for this special guy , i sarcrifice that 2 years guy . this guy really let me forget al my bad memories. he make me believed something in love . making me trust in love and have a sense of sercurity in him..i never ever feel this kind of feeling towards with other guy before ! have this fear to lose him! this fews day we have been together, he treat me so sweet .. sometimes i just wondering what he thinking when he beside me in his silence..i dare not think of our future , cause i scare i put a pin hope and i fall , i will deeply hurt..
yesterday, his grand mom passed away , he stil come down and find me drink . i know he veri sad but he dun wanna cry until the end of the day . he cried ! seeing he crying , i suddenly break down , i feel so useless cause i hope the one who sad and suffer is me and not him.. i dunno what to do but just to wipe his tears and see him crying , making my tears drop too! he told me sorry that he cant give me happiness but sadness, but i told him that a couple not onli go through for happiness but also have to share woes too!! i wil always be there for him!!going to his ah ma funeral , i'm sick , but i wil not fall so easily! love him

pay day and shopping day

go shopping with darling and we go to face shop amd i brought so mani products such as 3 facial masks for $12 , red sand facial cleanser for $18.90, peeling off system for $24.90, fast and quick acne creame for $14.90 , body lotion for$19.90, make up base for $16.90. we spend over $100 at face shop and den e gal tel me to apply for member.. and i recieved a vocher.. so happy.. we also went beauty basic to buy cotton for$7.9 and fake eyes lashes $3.9.. after that we went to pasta mania and eat 1 large hawaila pizza.. 2 chicken bologense spatt and 2 set of combo b which provide soup , 2 garlic bread and 1 drinks.. i order another bluberry soda .. taste nicer den fruit punch... veri rush in time cause i going to be late for work.. lucky , my fetch came and pick me up..

31st of nov

today went out with jane to bugis.. and also go take my pay, it is $347 cheque, so need to walk to posb bank and withdraw money.............

chun brought this special rose for me....

at sakae sushi with dear eating...

shopping with my darling , he look so blurrrrrr

thank him for giving such a special moments





another bunch of red rose sent by.......


my 17th gift , given by sis , bro and bf.. thank alot .. i love them

celebration for my sw33t 17th birthday

3 plus in e noon went out with chun go and eat sakae sushi.. after eating we went to walk walk..and we go take some neo prints, it is fun cause so long nv took any neo prints le.. old le.. went to walk again , and suddenly i have a gastric pain so we sat down at mos burger and slack.. waiting for time to past .. 7 .30 dear came back from toilet and he hold a bunch of cute rose to me, omg i was so touched.. love it alot , and we took some photo with this rose and we went off to outram and meet the rest..and me chun and blue tooth went to curious and wait for e rest to come.. when ireach curious , saw my boss he give me a bunch of rose say a person sent e but i still dunno who it is, and he gave me a hong bong ... kelly and kat gimme a citigems jewellery , joyce gimme a more than words keychain.. i love it alot.. about 8.30 , we go downstair and open a chivas and wait for my sis and fren come.. soon colin come and he open a bombay for me and give me a muee lighter , ting and christina give me a poclin bag and , miki and serlin give me a tops , serene give me a ebase tops , kat mummie n kelly open me a bomb ( canton) $600 for me. 9 plus i already drunk le , niam just came and she give me a dog bear with a necklace , jayson also came and look for me.. desmond came and give me a bunch of blue rose. ah fai came and brought me a lighter and a birthday card .. elvin came and give me a necklace.. danny came and open a cordon blue for me.. some happening that make him angry.. i dunno wat is it cause i damn fucking drunk .. crystal came and she pass me e dxo ticket and she fight with kelly .. hai.. ying and bro came curious find me and waited for me to go dxo and i drunk until my present is given niam to take care of and i also forget to wear back my heels.. lucky bluetooth told me..and i seh seh go dxo.. and reaching there i found out that where is al my rose my fren give me , i left it at curious.. i faster take cab go there again and took my rose and went back dxo again.. wtf , the bouncer dun let me enter cause i m fucking drunk and he tel me go wash face 1st .. in e end . still go in and dance with serene and the rest .. is fun .. ting went home den followed by serene den me and chun and bluetooth also take cab go central eat cause veri hungry sia.. and saw linda , ly, aron they al.. after eating went chun hse and stay.. even though i drunk that night but still i wanna thank everyone who came for my birthday and i reali veri happy and glad for al ur wishes . asap, bf, sis and bro.. sorry everyone i drunk and make alot of them worry..

studying day!!

tuesday 17 oct , wake up quite early and decided to go gekkie there to take back al e papers she have kept for me for a long while.. finally i was free to take from her..i have the urge to study and so i went to library with chun with my heavy stupid bag consisit chem notes , pencil case , maths 5 years series and a fool scape.. what the hell i'm doing , brought so much stuff..anyway is fine with me , cause he is gonna help me take my bag .. haha , i am such a bully..reach e library and we go to cafe and have our tea break.. i have 2 hot dog bun and home made lime juice , chun is a big eater, he ate 1 egg prata and 2 without egg and drink ice lemon tea.. their food price is affordable.. the hot dog and e bun i ate is veri crispy maybe they overcooked or EXPIRED.. hey , i forget to tel everyone of u , i 'm a hotdog eater .. that y i ate 2 hotdog bun.. hehe..after awhile gekkie come and pass me e papers and books, thank alot stupid gekkie..

after smoking, heading back to e library and started to revise my chem and do some silly stuff such as write out a law agreement and rules for chun ... haha , i such a idiot cause i too bored.. so i need some stupid stuff to entertain me.. after some fight with him , he have break the rules so he gonna pay out the fine $2100 on 3 days time.. i gonna be rich after 3 days.. before going home , i lend a book called" confession of a serial dater" , i search for so long, finally searched a book that suited me.. its the end of my study time!

darling gal message me she gonna come for my birthday and crystal called me wat i wan for my birthday, miki called and say she gonna buy hp jewel sticker and help me paste.. such a thoughtful darling.. love them ...

studying day!!

tuesday 17 oct , wake up quite early and decided to go gekkie there to take back al e papers she have kept for me for a long while.. finally i was free to take from her..i have the urge to study and so i went to library with chun with my heavy stupid bag consisit chem notes , pencil case , maths 5 years series and a fool scape.. what the hell i'm doing , brought so much stuff..anyway is fine with me , cause he is gonna help me take my bag .. haha , i am such a bully..reach e library and we go to cafe and have our tea break.. i have 2 hot dog bun and home made lime juice , chun is a big eater, he ate 1 egg prata and 2 without egg and drink ice lemon tea.. their food price is affordable.. the hot dog and e bun i ate is veri crispy maybe they overcooked or EXPIRED.. hey , i forget to tel everyone of u , i 'm a hotdog eater .. that y i ate 2 hotdog bun.. hehe..after awhile gekkie come and pass me e papers and books, thank alot stupid gekkie..

after smoking, heading back to e library and started to revise my chem and do some silly stuff such as write out a law agreement and rules for chun ... haha , i such a idiot cause i too bored.. so i need some stupid stuff to entertain me.. after some fight with him , he have break the rules so he gonna pay out the fine $2100 on 3 days time.. i gonna be rich after 3 days.. before going home , i lend a book called" confession of a serial dater" , i search for so long, finally searched a book that suited me.. its the end of my study time!

darling gal message me she gonna come for my birthday and crystal called me wat i wan for my birthday, miki called and say she gonna buy hp jewel sticker and help me paste.. such a thoughtful darling.. love them ...

* GOING oFf SOON *

going to leave soon on thurs night!! the feeling is defintiely excited and anxious but stil feel abit sad cause i cant c the person i wanted to see for long .. Maybe he have forgotten everything about it and since he wanted to ignored me and i think there no need me to go bother him anymore because he is the want who give up.. EvEN thought i cant bear to lose him , but i know that it not worth for me to cry again !! EvEN picture may faded , but memories wil always stay in my heart .. Now i can only see our pictures and think the memories u have given me .. Thank alot!! Nowdays, staying at home always eat , eat and eat .. until my mom scared of me .. keep buying lot of food for me everyday.. she thought it is a big attack for me that y i change alot in my diet cause i use to eat less but after e break off ...... i change alot.. Nevertheless, this big blow to me is a reflection of myself , it make me much more stronger than before and my mind is blank and i m so numb of al those things.. Some times i feel so weak and tired of al this kind of things, please god dun make me go insane and crazy... I never wake up from my dream , may lucified stay in my heart .. jealousy. greedy. love. al 7 desire

21st of oct celebrate my birthday at curious pub.. hope there wil b 32 of them be there.. love ya peep .. bibi, serene, jess, joyce,carol, serlin, stacy, miki, kelly, ice, rayne , niam , crystal , guan fu, chun jian , wei kiat, lyk , lung yu, zheng ming, lai he,zheng yang, robin, joshua, elvin, kelvin, danny, edwin , jason ( canto), desmond, andy, colin, alex... etc some more