10 of aug 07

i feel so shit and suck now:( just feeling that i not myself now@#$ i dunno what goes in my mind , am i doing the right choice ? did i break my promises ? did i do something sorry about myself? everything comes by , just not right for me! i always smile through up and down but did anyone know what deep down inside my heart feel.. you told me that i your everything you need , you promise you wil do your very best to make me happy ! i cant feel that anymore:( how i wish i be set free with those pain and problems :) i so jealouse those friends around me:(

i so afraid to say my heart out,
cause he never undestand what i really want~