baby sorry i chase you out of my house .. i dunno why ? my temper is getting worsen . enough of stress , i felt so tired and sick :( i will learn how control my temper . sorry that i hurt you !
me and baby went out after that incident , i brought those cute stickers and note book for so cheap price , worth it :) so cute , i love it :) went to bugis and we faster brought tori Q , there a meat ball sample and i keep on eating it , i just love to eat :) intend to brought a top from hyposis but the sleeves there abit weird ; too big even i try on a new pieces so i just get this top off my mind :) went to ebase and find my sis , she still e same , alway that crazy and we went to smoke and have a chat . so long nv see her; ya i damn miss her . went ahead to village and finding e shop reeve and i brought 3 tops . 2 for sze sze and 1 for me .. actually wanna get a black tops for myself instead of white but i just brought a 2 black tops * why not i try some others colour? :) hope she like e design as dun have as much desigh as i seen on msq . we just keep walking around e village and keep looking something we fancy but none of it .. al still e same . saw miki at work on 2nd floor .. so long nv saw her, damn miss ya .. gonna meet those gals out soon :) me and baby have our dinner at pasta mania , quite angry :( .. i wanna drink my favor italian soda but their z up have finished ; they cant mixed :( eat the bolongiese pasta and drink the minstrone soup and garlic bread :) i love it too ! the pasta taste abit funny different from last time and have a taste of cheese , i hate it .. feel like vomit but then i finished up.. baby naughty keep taking photo of me .. bad ,veri bad ! went to mcd and slack .. never went to school today cause i could'nt wake up ! :)

baby thank for making my day :) love you more .. please no lie from you again !
i wil not be that soft hearted again

he candid me with this handphone

too fat :(

our funny faces

i love his tounge more:)

how we trying to interlink each other !

ya.. i loving him :)

I cried out , i have nothing to say ! feel so heartbroken , tears rolled down from my cheek . sudden of a heart ache , undescrible pain . when i looked into the mirror , the reflection of e gal is not me anymore . my face looked so slugguish and my eyes swollen . i become so speechless , i am lost . have not been in this state for so long ? why must is strike me again ? i always thought that u are totally different from other bastard . you make me change! i no longer a drunken pub girl , no longer playful , always under your control and be a good gal .. a guy who i fully trust and accept me in every ways eventually hurt me by stabbing a knife behind my back slowly .. i cant believed it why you cheated me , i still don't believed it ! why must you deny it in e first place ?why you become speechless and said sorry to me ? i wil not be that faithful or honest any more ..it will heal one day , the feeling wil not be back again . the feeling of being betrayed and being cheated is so miserable; especially your loves one ! if i have a chance to turn back . i would choose not to check your phone and not questioning you ; just remained a fool in your world . maybe in this way i wil not be hurt and i alway still think that you are still a perfect boyfriend i ever met. i realised something , love is teaching you how to be hurt !

i am a failure to be a good girlfriend .. i dont understand you and i cant be there when you need me ! sorry , i couldnt even forgive myself !

30th of may



no schooling today , went to collect my card. so ugly :( went to his house sleep and eat our herbal egg again :) meet sze and pealyn 9 at cine . me and baby busy make up and doll up .. we reach earlier and we went to eat kobashiyaki .. nice :) we take some of stupid pic too ! surprise me everyone of us wear black include my gals too ! ha reach ms quite early and we so unlucky, there private party on .. we need to wait another 2 hrs den can go in but the bouncers there are good they give us tag and no need check our ic. free flow for us .. great :) the party start , me and baby dancing .. it been so long we have not dance :) went home about 3 .. ya everyone is tired .. me and baby bathe den we talk in bed .. we put 2 alarm on our bed side :) pic wil posted soon!

baby i wanna dance with you till morning light! love you .\ bobby scratch my leg and leaving a wound now .. :(

we love taking photo...



he love me..


just the 2 of us...


me and perlynn


so sweet of is 300607


MS....


my gals


al in black

23th of may

recently just quarrel with him again and again due to each of us different kinds of stress . we need our partner to understand and care but we use wrong kind of method to show. i felt so overpotected by him, i really could'nt breathe! is this good or bad? i could'nt even answer myself but then i really afraid that this person are going to overpower me and control my whole life. sometimes , i really want to grab a chance and told everyone i want to lead a single life but still i don't have this courage and speak up. i just being fickle-minded ! cause i stil love him as before but too many quarrel led us so sick and making me feel so drift apart.

baby:(afraid of history repeat)

25th of may

brought a mlphosis bottom and 2 tops from reeve , baby brought it for me :) he really pamper me. actually was decided to watch movie at msq but in the end alot of people queing for ticket :( is it ticket also got discount too ? haha :) end up having our dinner at sakae sushi , cause yhe shortest queue among the rest of restruant .. :) wanna eat the thai food but so many of them is waiting , the smell reali cant resist it ... after dinner we eat ice cream ay anderson . yogurt and norgurt is mistaken by the staff there :( get another 1 scoop free.. haha!

dear promised me that one fine day wil bring me to suntect and eat buffet :) don't forget ! i will not down in my list .

3 more DAYS to our 5th annverisary.

26th of may

dear brought new hp for me and him .. we holding the same new black hp now and the same no just one of the no is different ! sometime he just simply too sweet :) after buying , he brought me to bali thai again .. we eat tom yam soup , fried chicken , kang kong, sambal cuttlefish. baby drink orange lime ive tea, i order for him :) while eating , thought of wating herbal egg later but forget to buy:( charge hp at home, we like so excited keep playing our hp :) sure one fine day , we will get wrong hp ... wait and see. ha!

2 more DAYS to out sweet anniversary ..

baby i wil hold you tight and put you in my heart.


28th of may
blue mood day.. same thing happen again and again .. quarrel with him again :(i dunno what happen and we just break off :( i reali feel so sad to let him go . first time cry on the train, so may eyes on me but i just cry like no one cares. who can feel what i feel at that moment ? not a single one , only you !

things getting better now ! :) bring back my smile again

5TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY

dreams are like awaking hope

recently keep went to dental appointment :( very busy , cant even attend my sis kelly birthday , but i promised her that i wil celebrate for her before her actual birthday :)
just go for extraction AND cleaning ... is not as painful as what others say , just plenty of blood only when e doctor plug my teeth out. my 4 teeth wil be kept as a memories.. need to eat my medicine to control my pain :(

baby it wil be hard for us to kiss again :(
let you waited for 2 years ba :)

the pic we taken at party world ...


love my benny boy



he love me... benny to stephy

beauty theraphy meeting



i miss my crazy girls :)

recently went to orchard and take neo with my baby :) our very first time went to party world with baby and we sang for 4 hr .. we keep taking pic non stop ; we just too crazy.. pic will post soon ... at home we ate black pepper chicken puff ; yummy .. i love it :)
sunday 06/05/07

went to meet ade they al at boat quay .. actually wanted to do project but end up at mini pub drinking , sing song and play pool .. :) first time gathering , yup is fun .. but quarrel with baby :( he pissed off for going to pub with my friends , like i cheat him.. he came down after work and look for me , trying to quarrel with me .. luckily settled this problem :) ha !! chalet wil be going on on june :)


tuesday 08/05/07
i cried .. i hate to cried .. so long i haven been crying. my silence doesnt mean i happy .. my sadness falls within me .. i just trying to hide my emotions infront you .. do you know how much i love you ? how much you mean to me ? i dont like you use her msg and copy to me and make me feel meaningful ... pls dont do that again .. baby i still love you as before

wednesday 09/05/07

never went to school today .. went for dental check up with my uncle :) have cleaning and treatment .. feel so refreshment :) so exp $285 .. omg .. next is putting braces on :) it wil be pain , but i dont mind at all .

28 of april

4TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY

blame me for not controlling my emotional everytime . i in bad state now ; flu , running nose, headache , gastric pain , fever.. sorry for losing my temper on you and have a break off making you feel lost .. sorry for making you recieved a warning letter :( can you be more rational between personal & work next time . i don feel good when i messaging you those hurting and seperate words ; i just keep on crying . thank for your pursuading to make me feel you there ! dun do any silly things anymore , it reali hurt me :(

i'm sick :( we could not celebrate our anniversary !

thank for taking care me through the night ,
baby i like the way you pamp me to sleep ,
the way you treat as a baby ...
you are always mine

just busy of studying , studying and studying :(
everyday wake up by 6 am and rush to bathe , make up and tied bun.. :( a stupid routine i did everyday . ( don't ask me why?, it is to maintain professional look !)
have to top up my make up every month and have to put protecting lotion to my hair .. i been such a busy lady since i start school..


thank to baby for his understanding and encouragement ... i love the cafe cartel and sketches you brought me to eat .. just enjoying eating with you even is just a plain bread .

please dun be shock that my skirt i eventually wear a L size .. :( L size only just suit my hip but not my waist cause is extremly big .. ( back to my hipster style )

back to school time , me and kakis everyday smoke break ! we love to eat not like other beauty therapist only drink water ..
know a group of galfriends and is totally different from secondary friends , more matured thinking and on :) love them
alice our bikers who are very man
pearlyn who knew my boy
li shi who stay around me
sharon whose cousin is my ex waitress
jie jie who are soft spoken
mei mei who are my khakis

baby dun msg me that you early in e morining went to toilet but eventually u at my house downstair waited for me .. touched by you :)

baby pls dun blame me for not
having enough time to acc you
i always tried my best to meet you and
talk to you .
just to ensure that we still as close
as before .
please dun change your heart and leave me
here.
i wil promise you and did my very best to accomplished my mission .
love you as before

10 april

me and baby went to JB ...went there to eat the herbal roasted duck , soup , toufu and veggie ..
tasty but got alot of files ; hate it cause i feel so irritated .. so cheap onli 36 rm ...

we went to city square and walk ... so huge buliding ; very interesting . we brought 2 sponge bob for 50 rm and baby brought 2 boxers for 30 rm ...

went to season to eat ice cream and teriyaki spaghetti , the taste of the ice cream is so weird . baby finished up for me :)

having our dinner at marry brown , yea!! get to eat my marry brown again !
baaby :" i thought the onli last time i eat marry brown wil be at genting ... now can eat again !!"

this is my lil baby tel me , can you imagine how much he love to eat?

baby brought me a mng tees , love it alot !!

went home around 8 plus , and we take 2 packet cig to spore..get search by the custom ..
damn it , lucky nothing happen then ...

our spong bob name : GU BI & THRU BI

baby and me experience new thing at home ,
something cannot be told.
love you !

chemistry between us


GU BI : WIL you take me home ??


JB ( CITY SQUARE)




JUST THE TWO OF US AT JB

april 3 ~ april 6 GENTING TRIP

april 3
went genting and there alot of things crop up .
etc . 1) distributed us wrong hotel.
2) no meal voucher is issused .

making me so nervous and scare , my mind went blank . :(
thank to baby , everything have settled in half an hour time . :)

weather at there quite good , windy but not very cold .
walk around the genting and first world and take alot of pic.

having our dinner at mushroom farm . we have to take a bus and go down to this places.
indeed fun! :)
we order one big sweet & sour fish , green beans , toufu , crispy meat and one pot of tea .
so cheap and tasty :)
brought some drinks and beer to our hotel . went to play pool for alwhile and we have a early night on that day as both of us is tired of having a long ride.


april 4

went to "believed it or not " . experience alot of different kind of things and even see those wierd things that we never see before .. must try!!
went to KL by a cab , cost us 130 RM for this transport for taking us down and bringing us back to hotel . it took about 45 mins to reach there .

went to TIME SQUARE and shop , this buliding is damn big and tall . the shopping at there need few hours in order to shop finish everything ..
dye my hair + treatment + cut onli 180 rm .. baby waited for my hair done till sleep :(

went to CHINA TOWN after my hair done , shop and spend at there around 400 rm :) we eat bak ku tak at the road side .. indeed is unqiue , it contain veggies and mushroom . but is very exp ,24rm .

ah lim uncle waited for us at the nanyang hotel to fetched us back to hotel . we have a wonderful talk and laughter on cab .. taxi uncle at there drive very fast like racing car , they speed about 140 in every km .. woohhh , super envy ah lim uncle .

have a hot bathe , and we went out to have our supper at star buck ...

april 5

went to KL again , cheaper than yesterday cause is ah lim uncle buddy ,120 rm .

went to SELANWANG PLAZA , brought baby things for my auntie ; it's cute :)
and carry on to shop around .....

went to KLcc ( twin tower ) , inside was so high class . we onli take a look and went off to chinatown again...

we eat wan ton mee , so delicious ; yummpy plus a plum lime juice ...
carry on for our crazy shop and we brought 10 perfume home and some other things , spend around 300 rm ..

reach hotel around 7pm and went to mushroom farm and eat again :)
order more dishes this time round ... i just love eating !

went back room and have a hot bathe and we went out to have our supper at star buck . we are super crazy , trying to act romantic and we went to outdoor garden.
after 10 mins , we ran back into indoor cause is super cold and windy , i cant take it as i keep shaking .. haha!

april 6

early wake up and have out bread fast at marry brown ; i think this is the most delicious food i eat at genting ... went to hotel and pack our things.. more heavy and more bags ; omg
sad as we are going off :( photo wil be posted ;this is our memorable things we did in our trip .

thank baby for taking care of me ,
love him now more than anyone else ...

setting off to genting
3 of april ~ 4 of april

on the bus to genting

1st of april mon

baby meet me after work , take pudding and desert for him . i know he love it :) quarrelled again after eating and chatting:( hate that kind of questioning from him ! simply i just hate it , he never spare a thought of what i thinking and just only think of himself. his selfishness again make me think that something is really wrong between us:( suddenly i dun wish to talk nor see him anymore , i just wanna have a clean break up with him . his stubborness making me so fark up ; telling me to go down and meet him . i just dun wanna think anymore , sleeping is only the way to make me forget ! he just at my house downstair till 5 am plus :(

he message me through the night~



1.25am baby: i say wat also no use le... i think i understand what you mean le.. sorry for giving you so hard time all these while.. we have been together for 3 months plus le .. you should knoe i do care and love you very much de... wat i dont know why like that...frankly speaking ... you are the only 1 that i have bring to my cousin house there and let them see.. never dothat thing to my other ex before ... you are the only1 ... and i really hope you are thelast 1... but now is like every thing just gone by the wind..nothing is will change mylove for you .. i know myself ...watever things i say to you in the past 3 months is true...and never ever bluff you before ... all is not sweet talk.. all is from my bottoms of my heart...

~ me sleeping ~

1.55am baby: i'm totally speechless now.. sorry for my inmature thinking .. i dont want to ... i really hope to find the 1 that i love and loves me too.. i found you already.. but i lost you again .. sorry... i dun know how to cherish you when i found you .. once again sorry .. since now you hate me so much .. i know what to do le.. but i still love you somuch as before .. never change ..never..

~me sleeping~

2.02am kelly: sister...something happen to u and kor ...

~me sleeping~

2.06am baby: baby.. i dont know you sleep already anot... but i hope you can read my msg now .. pls forgive me ? pls reply me if you really haven sleep...

~me sleeping~

4.06am baby: it seem like you really dun care about me anymore... i have been waiting for your reply till now... i think this time round you really mean what you say.. you must be serious this time...

~me sleeping~

5.07 am baby : i have been waiting for you at your void deck till now...not even a short msg from you ...sigh... sorry i cant wait anymore ... is very cold here ... my whole body are numb and pain... i'm going back home now i'm not trying to let you pity me but... i just wanna see you still care for me anot... i feel so lost... step... i know is easy to find other gals out there ..but is not easy for me to find the 1 that i really love..and the 1 is you !

~ me sleeping~

2 april mon

when wake up , i saw al this message :( i keep looking through again and again but i just dun wanna reply.. mummy scolded me for being stubborn and bad tempered :( i moved by him , but i dun know what to say !! in my heart , i stil care him , i afraid he could not wake up on time to open his shop.. tml is our outing trip , should be happy :) but why i feel so uneasy now :(

baby i still love you .
sorry making a decision
to leave you .

30th march fri


watch movie with chun and lai he , secondary school friends :) it has been a long time we haven been chilling out . we had so much things to talk like in the past.
i'm so miss of our past :) can time go back ??? i dun think so !

lai he become good boy , he had apply for diploma of accounting . hope he study hard and get a cert soon. i know he can as he a clever boy.

we talk about what we gonna do in future :) i found that we al have grown up and found that studies is important for our carrer and future ! yes , i fully agree.
that why i pursure my dreams to study beauty theraphy.

baby fetch me after work and went home together , delivery mcd but we waited for so long .
baby called and scold that manager , that their delivery suck and not going pay for any cents :(
fierce ! after all , we eat free meal :)

31st of march sat

baby on call for service ; half day for work:)
we quarrel again cause he alway last min telling me to meet him , some more i haven prepared
anything yet .

don tel me if i love you or care you
i cant even answer myself ;
one day you open my heart ,
you wil know what the answer.

wed 28 march
baby half day :) meet him at imm with my make up kit and my dress to change for tonight..
baby come find me after work at kopi tiam . my aunty , her husband , ah ma and my mother at there too.. introduce baaby to my relative , so shy ! :*)

went off with baby to his house and we take a nap . Zzz
night , i helped him to style and blow his hair and i have heavy make up .
we dresses nice and we are ready to go * happy happy*.

3rd month anniversary :) love ya baby

went to anchorage and drink with baby and his friends . meet kelly there too :)
we are like twins, we wear almost same cause we have already say so earlier . haha!!

went to MOMO after drinks , meet serene there and we dance . first time i club with my baby . yes , i m happy!! hope he happy too... kelly sick , she went off earlier , so sad :( hope she well now ! we dance almost 3 hrs and went home cause i sweat like hell , somemore my stomach in pain . i havent eaten anything , just for today event! i dun wanna to show my big stomach after eating :( vomit out everything , feel comfortable :)

we slept so soundly after having such a happening day...baby promised me to bring me go club next time as i behaved well that night !!


baby , i wanna dance with you
throughout the night .
wanna feel you and touch you.

i wanna be a star tonight ; dance with me until the morning light

thursday 29 march
we went home together , and he bath and changed my clothes :) so cute of him , took my new towel . mummy cook mango pudding , baaby enjoyed eating it , we ated 2 puddings . yummp!
went to giant and we brought 3 boxes of durian and 1 packet of mee pok to shared.
ate 2 boxes of it and the rest for mummy , we slack on sofa and watch show.

evening watch movie ; mr bean holiday . we brought burger , herbal eggs and narcho combo inside threathe . we ate non - stop . the show is like mute , quite sleepy watching it but still that mr bean is funny but the ending sucks !! :(

baby , every things we do now
is like stepping forward to our dreams
no lies , no hurt with you .
thank for your honest and frank .

sun 26 of march

i slept on evening and wake up quite late... pretty late get out of my house :(
i'm late !!! baby waited me at e interchange and went home straight ;x
nag on me again of sleeping so late .. haha

he cooked maggie mee with hot dogs for me!
so *sweet of him

always nagged by him of my laziness of not changing to my pjymas...
baby ,i begin to learned :)

help him draw floor plan draft and store room shelves.
lose my temper cause i failed to do it neatly !! everything
done by 1 am and slept after watching tv...


baby , how nice it could be
if you could always hold me in your arms;
and feel your touch every min & sec.

even though we will be spending
less time together in future,
but pls rem that my hearts
belong to you .
*alive for you , die for you*

fri 23 march

went home with baby and clean up his house:) wa , so dusty , seem like so many years havent been clean up! while clearing , saw his album at his drawer ; forget my duties and started to browse his diary and ablum . went to settle our dinner at bali thai ; tasty and spicy . brought lots of maggie mee and drinks home.

diaries wrote al about him and his ex , i can feel that he reali love her , care her . he even reserved dinner for her and brought her rose on valentine and book a hotel . nervous , when she did not pick up his call nor reply him . missing her while at work .

baby , i can feel that you really love her ,
it takes one years for you to forget her !
crying over her, desperate over her ;
can i fully replaced her in your heart.

you did the same thing to me ,
i thought i was the special ones in your heart .
inside i crying , just by seeing that i only
another gal in your life.

baby , when i saw that photo ;
it says everything .

baby , dun give me an excuse
that hugging and kissing is
acceptable for best friends.
did you know what behinds me in my smile ?
* a beautiful lies*


sat 24 march

went to boon lay to brought tic for our genting trips. five stars tour !
4 days 3 night at genting hotel .
we wil set off on 3th of april ~ 6 th of april.
happy:) our first trip to overseas.

everything we did now is stepping forward to our dreams. ;)

bitch, you think you can snatch him
away from me ;
just because you once his first love and
doing some touching show for him .

being his slave , can you hold his heart ?

honestly speaking , your fashion sense
is suck :( disgust me of your wearing .
you are fat and your fats on your stomach
is like my ass.

can you please take a look at the mirror before you
go to my baby!!:)

seriously , i not slim or perfect.
but i trying to be perfect in imperfect
of me!

22 march 07 thurs

went out abt 10 and go find baby . saw serene and her bf at bus interchange , have a chat; thought he wil be late for closing . but what a surprised , he called me and said he off work le !!!!

went home after saying good bye to serene ...


baby slept so early yesterday :0
tomorrow his off day again :)

19 march tues
we went to his fren birthday chalet after his work .
felt quite uneasy cause alot of those weird aunty who talked so loud.
went home quite early , and i get hungry after watching tv , we delivery 20 nuggets. :0


baby we have wonderful chat over this night
treasure you always !!
love him ;+







20 march wed

today he half day work , came my house and waited for me to prepare .
i took my own sweet time again :)

went to bencoolen and take his stuff and went to shop .
i try one yellow top at mlphosis , it looked fat ...
but i love the cutting ! and not really exp :) maybe i choose this top rather than foever 21.
;*)

went home quite early and about midnight we hungry and we called delivery mcd and went to sleep after eating ZZzz


baby , we have our beautiful planning
one day it wil happen! :)
you should know what i mean .

fri 16 of march

went swimming with my beloved sister , we always have common topic to talk and laughed.
and this topic wil always being so popular among us ; we found that if the atmosphere getting boring , we wil think of it and started to discuss and laughed... after swimming went to eat and went to imm and disturbed my baby boy.

he was angry seeing so tanned ; no swimming for me anymore ! :(


we lying on the bed and he tear off the proposal i given to him
1) $19.90 black bag
2)$19.90 black shoes
3)$90 dye hair
4)$20 face shop base
5)$29.90 double extension

additional items
1)guess wallet
2)little match girl sling bag
3)gucci envy / dior perfume
4) blush powder
5) forever 21 tees

he agree and wanna buy for me ; jump to joy!!



17th march sat
we have some quarrel ; i just get pissed off by him . some more i come mens , my stomach cramp ! cant he spare a thought for me.
he called me so many times but i ignored all his called. tears again and went to sleep !
i hurt him by hurting myself , i felt so heart ache..

baby , sorry for what i done to hurt you !
is pain to see you hurt .
i trying to hide my love bottom of my heart ,
and never to show it and let you know how much you worth for my love!

baby you trying so hard to open my heart ,
and see how much you meant to me .
can you feel it now?
sometimes i trying not to love you but i failed ,
cause you have completely filled up my life.

pass my medical report; daddy send baby and me go school pay school fees .
he swaped his credit but not paying cash ... save cash to eat and buy things ( good planner).
headed to baby grandmom hse and visited his grandmom.. daddy even give us 2 hi card to redeem 2 set of mcd , i cant resisted food ... haha i wanna eat!!!!

went to vivo , and went to baleno and he go do his thing ; photoshot every display .
after done ,went to redeem the mac and each of us stil ate one cheese burger. yummy!
we had a quick shop and went to forever 21 and show baby the top i want cause he wanna brought for me ... lucky he said is nice too!! he gonna buy for me after his pay . baby brought a
rip curl slipper for $49 .. and we shop at guess shop , i saw a wallet i wanted; quite cheap , hope he gonna buy for me ..



sat at outside vivo and rest , the scenery was nice . especially cable car ; the lighting is so colourful and attractive , somemore is windy there ... romantic !!!



every night hugging each other on bed and sleep;
is a sweet and nice thing we do almost every day.
love you with al my heart ...
everynight a good night kiss , every morning a morning kiss.
a one and only sweet couple.

check up & day out with gal fren

12th march

baby went check up with me at SATA , so freaking weird there. the nurse there is rude and doctor there is unprofessional .. the doctor injected me without putting any medicine .. most funniest things was when need to test my unrine , i cant piss maybe i too nervous . so have to drink lot of water in order for me to piss... i was afraid cause my urine was so plain and i saw other was so yellowish , i thought i have diseases!! haha... when consulation , that doctor told me that tattoo can contacted to disease , den want to fail me.. what wrong having tattoo or piercing !! i dont need any comments from other other , i love my skin and body !!


meet serene and kuan to shop . we went to msq and then head to vivo . i brought a 600g of sea shells chocolate for baby . some pic of us , wil be posting few days later.





tattoo is art , please stop giving me that kind of looks and comments.
tattoo doesnt represent " ah lian" , it just a simple art .
can you ever tolerate the pain when tattoo?
if cannot , you shut up !
you just simply jealous of my skin .



sister sorry for the past i so wild and jealousy
that lead us quarrel...
lucky we solved this problem and we are back again .
not worth it to fight over a failure .
i love you .

day out with ting!

9th of march

went swimming with ting and baby , this the first time we have outdoor activites , we carried such a big bag like going to overseas. we laughed our ownself! she swim for awhile and went off to find her boy. me and baby enjoyed our process , we have laughter , jokes and gossips . he kept laughing of my foolishness , cause i keep shouting non-stop like a kids... M i ? we went to eat kfc after swimming, both of us are so hungry and i dun wanna share my cheesefries with him ... he going crazy.. haha!!! i kept complaining that i becoming tanned , i hated it ..... my back are so hot and black , looked like a indian skin . i need a whitening creme, who going buy for me?


went to je and see what show we going to watch , actually we long so much to watched " ghost rider" , but there did not have that movie .. so we watched " hanibbal rising" . we dun even know this show is nice or whatever , all we know is horrible show. we brought herbal egg , pop corn and drinks inside theathre !


firstly we thought this show is all about war like those boring movie , but this is actually a nice show to watch.. but is totally disgusting ... those armies ate hanibbal sister to survived , therefore he wanted to revenge and wanted those armies to feel the pain her sister felt... is a bloody show!!! baby keep telling me close my eyes , cause i afraid , is too scary and it make your hairs stand. " you eat my sister , i want to collect your head".



hope there wil be more excited outing ahead for us.
love make me learn to be more responsibilty , sensitive to his feeling.
make me realised how beautiful the world is !
thank you .

"sistership"~ "sistershit"

gal , maybe i am a fool to you , you dun even care how i feel at all.
i treated you preciously , care you and love you .
but this is how you showed your love to me .
you treated me as a rubbish ; throw me in a dark corner and left me alone.
this few years of laughter , unhappiness between us;
may vanishes in your memories but not mine.
now we have come to the ending of our path
you may forget me and led your own life and have your own new friends.
i hereby wish you al the best for your future


she choose to celebrate with her loves one "sister";
but not me and kuan .
sorry i not the one included in her heart.
the present have put one corner ;
and make me knew how important we are in her heart .
thank gal , we understand everything!

out with janelle !!

went out with pretty and we kept laughing non stop , alot of funny stuff and met alot of problematic peoples , kinda weird !! actually i have nothing on my mind to brought any stuff back home , however i get influence by pretty shopping habits ..omg ..my atm going dry!!!
brought a shorts , bikini , 2bras, one packet sea weed and one black heels......

have a bad diahhera after eating e chicken rice ! hubby saw what i brought and lucky he did not nag at me , he just said the shorts is too short !!! woo ...



love shopping with my crazy lil pretty ~ keep in contact~
love the way we laughed and giggling

28th anniversary

our 2nd month anniversary

visit his father and grand mother at tampinese .. his father and granny is so funny , they are so friendly and the way they talk and react , keep making me laugh!!

we go catch a movie show called " NORBIT" at msq .. so funny show even thought the story line is messy but then after al is a good show you can watched.. WARNING: do not eat nuts and cracker while watching this show , u wil spilt out when laughing!!
brought a small pig fan and a pig mirror , look cute but like children....

we intend to go MAKANSUTRA and eat seafood but due to the black cat at there, i was so afraid , he like gonna eat me up .... we walked to lao pa sau , so romantic cause is raining and walked with an umbrella and 15mins time reach there .. we eat satay , cockles , bbq stinggray , bbq sotong.... i was so full.. went home after eating!


simple but yet a nice memories

17th feb -- 24 th feb

I'm sick , sick .. i thought is just an unserious flur but never ever know that it become so serious that my fever hit to 40 degree , surprisly i dunno how i can survived. bad swollen sore throat making me so fear of swollow single food into my mouth , even drinking just plain water , it feels hurt HURT .. who can felt how i feel at that moment? Never be eaten for so many days, every single day just one slice of white bread ! guess m i going to slim down ? yup , my tummy have become flat after i recovery . But so sweet of him keep taking care of me without fail, especially his mother cook porridge for me and tel me take my medicine on time... i visted 2 doctors cause my fever keep come and go , he so worried !!

baby thank for ur care

can you be trusted?

i found out that his hp got a message called fannie which send him " love ya alot" !! i really dunno what does this sentence mean ? i was veri sad and he kept confronted and asked me what happen but i keep telling him that nothing happened. because i dun wish to know the fact, i scare i wil cry , i scare i wil hurt by him .. when we sleeping , he told me he love me , but i have no respond at that moment as i kept thinking that did he msg her and told her the same way as he did to me now! i sense that he crying over my coldness and ignorance but what can i do , i too hurt to think and understand .. simply i just closed my eyes and say good night to him and sleep .. that the only solution for existing of pain , don't you think so ?

thursday18/1/07
wake up at 11 plus in the morning, and he still sleeping . so i wrote our daily life style in a diary , and i think is very meaningful and when he wake up , he read it.. and asked me what happened yesterday . i dun dare to speak up in front of him but just beat about the bush and i started to cry . he told me that a misunderstanding, he said that the gal is her junior staff and she fall out of love and he console her and she treat him as a " big bro" .. she send "love ya lot" is just simply a friend care. i am jealous , i am angry but what to do , since he convince me , i just have to put a smile and told him i understand!!!

we went to eat at 289 and i went back home about 4 pm and i have to be quick cause i meeting him 6pm at boon lay .. i scared i late again ..

Sigh i late again , he reached that at 6pm but i still make up , so he got baleno and waited for me . i reached there about 6.30 pm ..haha den we go jp and walk walk and take cab heading to imm cause i reserved a boots from serene , so i have to go and see whether is nice. after talking to serene , den me and dear go diaso cause i wan buy things , buy eye brows shaver , mean while serene came to meet us cause she off work le. stupid dear keep asking me to take umbrella for him , make me look like typical auntie .. den we walk here and there. finally i saw my shop , face shop , i m so happy cause i alot of things to buy .. i brought one eyes brow pencil and one eyes shadow cost me $21 le.. and the sale gal veri funny and cute tel me buy nail polish cause today going increase the price so i faster choose .. i brought 4 bottle and she discount for me and she give me alot of sample creame tel me take take ..haha .. indeed she a nice lady ...so fun to talk to her !! went to giant and brought tissues box and cotton pad to dear house cause i need it ma, i felt something , i felt that i become a aunty .. haha ... go smoke with serene and dear go buy guay for mummie eat ! after he came to find us , serene going to find her coffee club and dear and me take cab back home.. reached home , i give some sample creme for mummie used and we watch television together waiting for the show to end and we go to eat.. lazy to wear nice so wear a pjymas and go eat with him .. after eating , wenr back home and he went to bathe ,but me sleep like a pig , dunno why i so tired!! we felt that everytime came back from imm , i wil be veri sleepy, maybe there got virus better e careful next time..

maybe i too tired le and too happy at imm cause keep laughing and all that so keep dreaming.. dear say i snored so loud lo .. and keep saying dream words such as serene cooked food for coffee club but not for me .. den later shout and say got crocodile around me..haah.. morning dear told me , we both laughed ... i like a kids to him .. bla la la.. reached home .. sleep again , now going to bathe and make up ... to be continued!

believing!!!

He is the only one who make me believe that true love existed in this world. we almost spend the time together and sure there wil be happiness and sadness like quarrel and i often lose my temper but he still willigly to tolerate and coax me . he make me realise what is love !! sudden i fear of losing him , fear that one day he leaving me . every words he told me on that night really melt my heart and i feel so touch. when i sick , he took care of me over the night and make me eat my medicine on time . he rush down to the clinic to see me even he have important task to do and he concern me when i feel pain . sometime somehow i feel like cry , i cry because i feel so happy that i met him in my life. never regret to make him mine. everytime he scold me cause he care for me ! now trying to quit smoking and quit my job .. his birthday is coming , dunno what to buy for him! sigh .. cause he love to eat and i love to eat too, now we are like pig , always eat and sleep! love him since 28 of dec , we have been together for 20 days!!!

new start of day!!

never even notice when we started to have affection in each other ! never even noticed when we started to love and care each other so much .. for this special guy , i sarcrifice that 2 years guy . this guy really let me forget al my bad memories. he make me believed something in love . making me trust in love and have a sense of sercurity in him..i never ever feel this kind of feeling towards with other guy before ! have this fear to lose him! this fews day we have been together, he treat me so sweet .. sometimes i just wondering what he thinking when he beside me in his silence..i dare not think of our future , cause i scare i put a pin hope and i fall , i will deeply hurt..
yesterday, his grand mom passed away , he stil come down and find me drink . i know he veri sad but he dun wanna cry until the end of the day . he cried ! seeing he crying , i suddenly break down , i feel so useless cause i hope the one who sad and suffer is me and not him.. i dunno what to do but just to wipe his tears and see him crying , making my tears drop too! he told me sorry that he cant give me happiness but sadness, but i told him that a couple not onli go through for happiness but also have to share woes too!! i wil always be there for him!!going to his ah ma funeral , i'm sick , but i wil not fall so easily! love him

pay day and shopping day

go shopping with darling and we go to face shop amd i brought so mani products such as 3 facial masks for $12 , red sand facial cleanser for $18.90, peeling off system for $24.90, fast and quick acne creame for $14.90 , body lotion for$19.90, make up base for $16.90. we spend over $100 at face shop and den e gal tel me to apply for member.. and i recieved a vocher.. so happy.. we also went beauty basic to buy cotton for$7.9 and fake eyes lashes $3.9.. after that we went to pasta mania and eat 1 large hawaila pizza.. 2 chicken bologense spatt and 2 set of combo b which provide soup , 2 garlic bread and 1 drinks.. i order another bluberry soda .. taste nicer den fruit punch... veri rush in time cause i going to be late for work.. lucky , my fetch came and pick me up..

31st of nov

today went out with jane to bugis.. and also go take my pay, it is $347 cheque, so need to walk to posb bank and withdraw money.............