Recently life getting better :)

Super ADDICTED to salmon .

Eating 2 or 3 times per week , I loving it :)



i will be fat again lah:(




Lollipop loves:):)
I love WATERMELON flavor~~

Finally you can see i smiling happily:)

Chicken wings ~

Oyster Bay red wine ~

26th may 09 tues

The feeling of desperate of slim down is running my mind every min.

Every food i ate , i so paranoid that i will fat again .

I feel very very suffered :(

I craved for so much food but i cant even bring myself to eat those food.

I find that i dun used to be that happy like the past anymore.

I care too much about my appearance and yet neglect how i really feel deep inside.





Everyday i starve myself after eating a meal of bread ...

Sometimes even hungry till i wanting to cry .

I be asking myself why should i deserved all this?



The only moltivated me is the word ' fat '.

25th may 09 Monday

Happy Bday to Janice:)



Yeah , meet her at 7pm and we cabbed down to Cine to have Suki Sushi.
Is my treat la. haha:)
The salmon there super Thumbs up .. We ate 3 plate of sashimi :)

After eating , went over to Balcony and chill..
My drink again ' Watermelon & Strawberry' and she have Raspberry :)
Nice to chill out with her , Damn lot of things to share .. haaa

So sad my both credit card keep declined . Really damn spoilt mood !!









Anyway Hope you enjoy the night :)



Thank for sending us back !

Hey , finally i have my very own Weighting Machine:)

I really damn happy .

I proud to say i now 47 KG !!!!!






I never see wrong .. I really can see 4* Not 5* anymore!!

Aiming to hit 43 kg and maintain...






Lastly , who wanna go Threading ?

My eyebrows damn messy now ...

23 May 09 sat


2 days never work for roving .
Knee Pain :(


Extremely happy on this day,
Mood is damn freaking good .


Powerhouse & Sabai Sabai Night :)

Finally saw my long lost sec sch buddy . haha
Thank for your Fruit shooter treat .
Anyway have 2 jugs of Lime volka and Dance abit .
I'm quite reserved on that night But i still crazy !!

Hopped to Sabai Sabai to find Angeline & co .
After 3 am , Sabai quite bored cause they did not play my R&b :(



After Sabai , head over to JB :)


I keep make noise that i wanna eat SALMON ..
I craved for Salmon , Raw fish & porridge :(


After JB , went over to 651 eat bee hoon and after few mouth very full:)hahah









Haaha Tonight really happening !!

LTA ~~~~






Anyway hope that everyday i can live so happy :)

21 may 09 thurs

Steamboat with lovelies finally:)

Didnt get to eat much cause no mood but i talk alot..

I just feel like pouring my feelings. That's all


I know my vulgarities everywhere again:(




* I will get my ass down to sabai on sat if free okok:)

20 may 09 wed

Ladies night at power house.


Super last min suggestion , never make up again.
Very irritated by my face ; break out more and more :(

Ok I super good gal last night..
I limit myself in drinks and dance.

Anyway is been so long i really dance..



Cindy's Love came down to fetch us to 126 geylang dim sum to eat .
Anyway at carpark wanting to change to jasper car , i fell down :(
Super pain and embarrassed .......... Sucks i always so suay.


I have a painful wound on my knee .
After this fell , i cant sleep ...




*Mac compact powder lost again , 2nd time :(
I got an excuse now to buy a new powder. haha




*Shit luh , Mother tell me quit smoking again..
Ya ya i trying to cut down also :)

I feel everything is in control.

Where is the ' steph ' i used to be ?

Can i back to my true self?


I know i have changed to another person that i don't even know who i am now.


*Face break out again:( Shit luh!!!!!

18th May '09 Mon


Last Min went in JB :)

Maybe i'm a good love advisor but when things strike on me ,
i cant even help myself at all.

Anyway , i screwed up my timing once again .
I overslept , ended up cant make it to Casting/Interview:(

I'm such a Hopeless Bitch...



Stephy Damn Long Never went for SHOPPING!!! :(
Next planning ahead:)

Thurs : Steamboat with lovlies.
**** : ZoO anyone?
**** : Ladies night?
**** : Chill out night?
**** : 126 Dim sum?



Sigh , I miss so much things~~

18th mon 09 Mon

Life still move on .

Life doesnt seems to be that happening anymore.

*Pussy Cats Doll Domination World Tour '09

DATE4 Jun 2009 Thur, 08:00PM

DURATIONApprox 75 mins

VENUESingapore Indoor Stadium

TICKET PRICE (Exclude Booking Fee)Standard - S$148 (Free Standing), S$128, S$98, S$68

Happy man , Pussy cats doll is coming !!

Anyone wanna go with me?

Next week gonna buy for this concert ticket :)

Wake up cry again..

the memories that left behind after break up is the hardest path to go through.

I felt that i'm so useless , all i know is cry cry and cry..

Maybe u have led a better life with a new partner.

Wish you all the best...

Take everything granted in the past...

Come to realise it that actually i am so bless and happy in the past..

16th May 09 sat

Went roving at Demspey rd working with chanel:) haha

Thank for fetching me & picking me up :)

After dropping chanel to cine , headed to vivo to watch midnight movie.

X-men Wolverine quite a nice show with good story line.

After movie , went over to ph to talk and go off to Chinatown .

Actually wanting to eat the porridge and raw fish but end up i dun feel like eating:(

Head to Marina Barrange instead after buying drinks.

Emotion control my mind again..

Well , i control my tears this time round.

6 .30 Mustafa shopping . haha

Breadfast time , head over to boon lay market to have breadfast instead.

Home sweet home...

* Anyway hotstuff mailed me. Not selected for this issue ,

Been shortlisted for june issue upcoming shooting:)

15 may 2009 fri

Roving at Jurong hill again:)

Thank for coming to pick me up ~

After work , went to west coast to have mcd .

start from 14/5 is having pink mug.. I crazy over pink pink pink:)

Head to M.R after brought beers and meet the co..

I cried from west coast to M.R .. Too emotional:(

Shouldnt rack the past out .

Super happy cause there's piglet to hug now .

Finally i get this piglet i longed for.

Went into JB to petrol again and the most funniest part was.......

After which came back to spore and went to Mustafa.

I never been there before and i'm shocked that they have alot of barang barang man. hah

Home sweet home!!

Tears again ..


I dun wish to either but no one knows how i feel even my close one.


Somehow i loved to keep all my feelings , is better to be untold.


What's still holding me back?


Can i really find someone that pampered me like the same as he did?


Can i really find someone who can stand my everything?


Can he give me what i want?

lastly ,


A little not too over...





I cant deny that there's no sweet memories for past 2 years.


my next relationship how i gonna start?


i knew that i cant get the best things anymore.


Dramatically changed in my life?




Who should i blame now?


Me , myself !!!

After so long , finally i jotted down my feelings.


Yup , i feeling better:)

13 march 09 wed

meeting cindy slack at nearby :)
After 12 am , we become so bored and we suggested to sing k .
After much consideration , we decided to go Top 1 ktv located at bugis.

Cabbed to there and started to sing at 1 am:)



Really surprised on that night:)

Anyway i'm happy ...




14th may 09 thurs

A very Delicious food but too bad my tooth cant bite at all:(
After dinner , went over to meet trina to collect uni for this coming sat night roving.
Head over to east coast park to slack after that.


As usual , morning reached home:)


I realised something , whenever i inside my room,
I feel so emptiness...

12 may 09 tues

Brought a black heels at Heat wave , finally i free from my covered heels.

Went for dental appointment for tightening braces ..

Very pain now :(

Dun force me to be in love .

Love to be loved ..

Love to tie down someone but not being tie down..

That's my 2 days back photo shoot :)

Can you see something?

After looking this & the past picture , i really slim down !!

The photographer never photoshop too .. haha

TG photographer complained I no ' neh neh' liao.

Ya , is true la i wont deny also.

After since i start to eat slimming pills till i stopped.

I felt that my ' neh neh ' drop 1 cup la:(

Anyway i'm happy for who i am now :)

Stephy is damn emotional.

I'm so aimless ....

I dunno what i want at the end of the day..

I may look happy , but what's down inside my heart you will never understand!

What's still holding me back now?

11 may 08 mon

Sleep for 2 hr and forced myself to wake up :(

Ever since that night i fall down , my body aching till now .

Can you imagine i'm so lazy till sit on toilet bowl , i take a nap for 5 mins ,

shower with my eyes closed and so fro... haha

Went out and meet fiona to casting .

Super anxious but after like 15 mins interview ,

i feel a burden off from my heart finally :)

Anyway , the interviewers like Damn Shocked that i have so many tattoos :(

The possibility of into the hot stuff maybe lesser but at least i'm glad that i have this opportuntity to attend their casting .

Result will out by this week , i guess ~

But i never put such a high pin hope on myself :)

After casting , head to tampinese to have our late lunch at Sakae sushi :)

Dun eat much also but fiona keep eating non stop. hah
Cant imagine she damn skinny but still can eat that much .

She accompany me chit chat and realised that we have so much stuff to gossip with.

Thank you for driving us back to west :)

Someone really can eat Damn lot ; Porridge & burger & nuggets.. haha

9TH MAY 09 sat

Sleep as early as 9 am . Omg:)

Somerset Liang court Hotel:)

Corset . nice? Thank tg brought for me :)

Wake up late , Faster went out with big bag and cabbed over to somerset liang court hotel for photo shooting with cindy.

Reached late so shooting will be delayed.

Faster make up after eating a burger:)

I damn stone .

My face like no expression !!

After end products , should know what's the outcome :(

After shooting , went over to lavender and eat Famous prawn mee. haha

End up , i only eat the prawn but not the noodle:)

No appettite ~~

Chatting again , and so many things flash through my mind after a topic.

Sigh , i dun wish to cry again..

Head over to vivo and chit chat again . has

Aftermath , went over to Shenton way party world .

Meet up with angeline cause she at sabai , end up being pulled to sabai. haha

After awhile , went off to sing k ~~

Dun wish to say the later part :(

I dun deserve anything..

8th may' 09 fri

Tiring night :(

Working & roving for tiger beer at Jurong hill .

My legs cramp like shit lo !!

Thank for picking me up :)

There is damn deserted , if not i really dunno how to go home .

Went over to west coast Mcd to have late dinner .

I'm full after 7 pieces of nuggets only , not really me .

Was planning with cindy where to head to aftermath.

End up decided to go Soho for jacuzzi & sauna :)

Went home to take my stuff and went over to cindy hse and pick her up .

2.3o am Jacuzzi , damn shiok & relaxing ..

Soaked till 4 am and 1 min of sauna. Damn hot!

Bathed and went over to Nearby coffee shop to drink.

Not eating cause scare fat :(

Blessed to have this peoples around me . Really appreciated~

Sometimes u will felt why peoples keep nagging over you ?

you will get the answer at the end of the day :)