26th may 09 tues

The feeling of desperate of slim down is running my mind every min.

Every food i ate , i so paranoid that i will fat again .

I feel very very suffered :(

I craved for so much food but i cant even bring myself to eat those food.

I find that i dun used to be that happy like the past anymore.

I care too much about my appearance and yet neglect how i really feel deep inside.





Everyday i starve myself after eating a meal of bread ...

Sometimes even hungry till i wanting to cry .

I be asking myself why should i deserved all this?



The only moltivated me is the word ' fat '.